The Beech Tree
For weeks, all the trees on
Lockwood Road prepared
for absence. Now, in late
Autumn, they found it. I
walk through a sepia
photograph. Today
I think of my father —
my dad, my daddy — who
is fragile, who stumbles
easily. For weeks, I
have felt his spirit, his
warmth fall away. I have
walked this road many times
with him: every turned leaf
meant naming maples, ash,
dogwood. Now every rut
in the road is a new
chance to fall. I can still
hear his footfalls, his laugh.
Here, in the grief
before the grief, all is
vulnerable, a word
from the Latin, meaning
to wound. Here, where Finley’s
fence opens to this
meadow, a beech tree I
never noticed still grasps
its bright leaves. It teaches
what my dad taught: to stand
tall, and when it is time
to let everything go,
to let everything go.
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Heather Hallberg Yanda teaches in the English Department at Alfred University, in the hills of upstate New York. After many years of sending poems out, her work has been published in such journals as Barely South Review, Comstock Review, Tar River Poetry, and (forthcoming) in The Yale Journal of Medical Humanities. In the midst of the pandemic, her first collection of poems, Late Summer’s Origami, was published by Ashland Poetry Press. She is currently seeking a publisher for her second collection, What the Stones Borrowed.
