RSVP
after Naomi Shihab Nye – The Art of Disappearing
“when they invite you to the party, remember what
parties are like before answering”
I’m sorry.
I will not be able to attend. No, I do not have
other plans. It’s just that the rice will need soaking
and anyhow, I do not want to come.
A creek has a different cadence depending on where
you stand, how far, and in what direction. Did you
know this? If you invert your head to the ground,
the creek has a second language. Anyhow, you do not
want me at your party. I wouldn’t know what to talk
about. The song of spring, say the poets, is of renewal.
I have seen otherwise – blossoms practically beg for
the ground. Don’t make me repeat my chronology
of updates, my rote opinions, my well worn stories.
I’d rather sing with the creek. I’d rather dream in
the grass, count the leaves, disappear.
I’d rather tell you about cooking rice.
You can tell it is done soaking when it has absorbed
enough water to surface. Did you know it cooks softer
this way? You don’t even need a rice cooker. Just a pinch
of salt, cover with water, low heat, fifteen minutes.
Let sit.
Thank you, but do not expect me. This is strictly
personal. My blessings to everyone. Let’s go for
a walk sometime. No words necessary.
I’ll prepare tea.
*
What can I tell you about our life?
Besides the sheer delight of it.
In how full of music it is, piano mostly,
and poetry, certainly, and daily walks through
the neighborhood trails, which often include
animal encounters, as yesterday, when
a raccoon ran up the tree and watched us with
curious eyes and flattened ears, then showed
its full face while we sang to it.
And tonight, arriving home, he arranged
a bouquet for me; chrysanthemums,
hypericum berries, carnations, one sunflower,
one rose— while I read him poetry.
And now, as I write this, he is singing,
he is filling me with a music I never imagined,
a love not expected, not deserved.
Nor promised, remind me the flowers at the altar,
who last for maybe a week, sometimes more,
and return glad in purpose to their real home,
the ground.
*
Moudi Sbeity is a Lebanese-American poet, author, and contemplative counselor. Born in Texas and raised in Lebanon, he moved to the United States at the age of eighteen as an evacuee following the 2006 July war. In Utah, Moudi founded and operated Laziz Kitchen, a Lebanese restaurant celebrated by the New York Times as “the future of queer dining.” Moudi was also a named plaintiff in Kitchen v. Herbert, the landmark case that brought marriage equality to Utah and the 10th circuit states in 2014. He is the author of the memoir Habibi Means Beloved, and the poetry collection Alhamdulillah Anyway. His poems have been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and Orison’s Best Spiritual Literature. Moudi’s work focuses on themes of justice and liberation through a spiritual framework of compassion, forgiveness, and awe. As a lifelong stutterer, he is passionate about writing and poetry as practices in fluency and self-expression. moudisbeity.com
