Places Don’t Last but Friendships Do
The place where we met will soon be dust,
will be more, won’t be. Someone,
maybe a woman who looks like you,
will be in the cab of a machine
wearing a blue hard hat and earbuds,
listening to George Strait. Her hand
on levers will set a chain in motion,
a steel ball will crash against a brick wall,
again and again, so walls, windows,
and doors tumble into rubble. Dust
will fly into the air, into what was the fourth
floor office where you sat at a desk
and I walked through a door and saw you
dressed to kill, smartly groomed,
your hand on a stack of papers as you
looked up at me. You had a window
slightly tinted, with a view of buildings,
grounds, and a highway. I thought: I wish
I had a window in my office. Mostly
I looked at you, your face. As you spoke
I heard what you said, but it didn’t sink in.
I was busy being knocked out, dazzled
by your beauty. Now I see only dust flying
from rubble, the walls down, the ground
piles of chunks of Sheetrock, brick,
and glass that trucks will haul away.
But you and I are here, our spirits still there?
No. The essence of us, our lasting
friendship lasts here, not to be torn down
by a wrecking ball, a demolition crew.
*
Washing My Glass Cup in the Sink
this morning I thought of Adolph’s girlie
magazines he kept in a cupboard
in the upstairs bathroom but then thought
I’d never been farther than the kitchen
where I saw a toaster Adele got
from the Raleigh coupons she’d saved.
I wondered if memory was playing tricks
on me. Adolph smoked Camels, Adele’s
father smoked Pall Malls. I remember
the red pack, and that when the house
was no longer the Zetelski’s but the Lee’s
I watched the JFK inauguration, the sun
in Frost’s eyes as he read “The Gift
Outright” on the TV in the finished basement.
Jeff’s grandmother cried seeing an Irish
Catholic president. I remember wooden
crates of soda: the bottles grape, lime
green, red, and brown for cream soda,
on the breezeway floor. The Lee’s
had the crates delivered on a regular basis.
Jeff’s father, a Lorillard exec, worked
in the City. Adolph owned an auto upholstery
shop in Hackensack and he built a wooden
platform, that sat level on the long slope
of the backyard, for Prince, their shaggy
black mongrel. Prince’s chain clumped
on the wood that was often feces-strewn.
He lived in a dog house and some days
ran the length of the yard. Frank, Adolph’s
son, told me Prince was hit by a car,
when we went to visit the Zetelski’s
on their farm outside Binghamton. By then
the Lee’s were in the house up the block
from mine, the house that, after the Lee’s
moved, your family took over. I never knew
your family. By then I was busy being away.
My parents didn’t mind; they knew
being away was part of growing up,
getting out from under the shade of the oak
that stood at the bottom of the slope
kitty-corner to your garage. I can hear
and feel the crunch of acorns under my feet,
and remember the black coupe Adele’s
father owned parked on the driveway.
He wore a black fedora, a white, bushy,
trim mustache, and a silver watch chain
across his black vest. He and his wife
came from Germany. She gutted fish
on the breezeway; the guts slimy
and tubular lay piled on newspaper sheets.
*
Pat
Pat, a woman married to Elisabeth,
thought me injured in Vietnam,
and I liked that; it excused things
like my drinking and driving
and being in hot water
with our department head
because a girl’s parents called him
to complain about my telling her
she should go to the pool on campus.
I wasn’t injured anywhere on my body.
I don’t think I was injured in Danang,
there during Tet ‘68, the height
of the fighting, visiting prostitutes,
which was illegal, which made
the visits all the more exciting.
I think I would have been the same
had I not gone to Vietnam,
which was my choice. I enlisted
in the navy to keep from going there,
and went there anyway. I was ordered to.
It was my choice to obey. At least
I didn’t end up in the jungle, shooting
and being shot at. I helped shoot a dog
that had gotten mangled by a semi.
Off the edge of the road that ran past
Bridge Cargo, near its gray bunker
walled with sandbags, in the dust,
like fine powder I pulled the trigger
of my black M16, in unison with others.
We put the dog out of its misery.
Up from the Bridge Cargo entrance
stood a tower. At the foot of the tower
I traded Mai, who was maybe eleven
years old, a sandwich for her picture.
Up in the tower I looked out at a rice paddy,
and a few woman walking with buffalos,
and carrying pails on long sticks
across their shoulders. A Q.C. (Quan Canh)
at an intersection directed traffic.
His fatigues bloused, so I could see
his polished boots, he wore a helmet,
blew a whistle, moved his gloved hands,
and pivoted his body with the grace
and precision of a ballet dancer.
*
Peter Mladinic’s most recent book of poems, Maiden Rock, is available from UnCollected Press. An animal rights advocate, he lives in Hobbs, New Mexico, United States.
