Loneliness by Jane C. Miller

Loneliness

When you grow up on a farm, the farm
never leaves you, the handle of a bucket
heavy in your palms, the dipper’s metal
cool on your lips, the pitchfork’s lug
& heave, corn tossed row by row into
muscled memory’s ache. Even hay-
stacks sweated the morning dew.
Dirt caked hands, overalls, boots.
Sitting was lazy man’s work. Even
in retirement, you made reading
a task, your tongue-dampened thumb
paging through the news still fresh
at sunrise, your favorite time even
in frost, its hard grass crunch, barn door
creaking open the enclosed smells
of animals, their nicker & snort
made large in the quiet, you & the mule
smoking winter’s breath. Before hunger
made fast the hard work of chores, you
hungered for more. What was I then but
a vague wish, a witness only of
what came after, after you left.

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Jane C. Miller’s poetry has appeared in numerous journals. A winner of the Naugatuck River Review Narrative Poetry Contest and two state fellowships, she is author of the debut collection Canticle for Remnant Days (2024) and co-author of Walking the Sunken Boards (2019), both published by Pond Road Press. She coedits the online poetry journal, ൪uartet. www.janecmiller.com.

Three Poems by Arlene Weiner

For Loneliness

                  —The Prime Minister of the U.K. has appointed a Minister for Loneliness

I know a woman who in widowhood
became enamored of a pet fish,
and a woman, long divorced,
who delights in seven fish,
each in his bowl.

During a time when I lived alone
I would hear a cricket chirping at night.
It fell silent as I passed through the room,
so I knew it knew me. And I grieved
when it no longer sang.

Minister for Loneliness, we have to sing
the angels back, we have to cherish
the creatures, even the smallest,
whose wings make song,
who may be the angels themselves.

*

Mantis

Far from any tree or blade of grass
on a street where sparrows
chirped above a storefront
it appeared in my bedroom

We children believed there was
a two hundred dollar fine
for killing a mantis
but who would have hurt it

so green and large and human
so upright and grasping
surely an ambassador
to me in that room

where my mother drew down
the dark green shade
that in summer admitted
pinpoints of light

my first constellations

*

In the Night

Someone is sitting beside you reciting.
The room must be cold, to hold you
from Friday to Sunday. All night
someone is near you, reading psalms,
as your mother read to you in your bed.
You do not hear. Outside this morning
I heard a bird say keep, keep, keep,
but we cannot keep you, cannot hold you.
You are still but you do not sleep.

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Arlene Weiner lives in Pittsburgh. She has been a Shakespeare scholar, a cardiology technician, an editor, a den mother, and a member of a group developing computer applications for education. Her poems have been published in a variety of journals and anthologies, including Pleaides, Poet Lore, and Paterson Literary Review. She held a MacDowell fellowship. Ragged Sky published two collections of her poetry: Escape Velocity (2006) and City Bird (2016). She also writes plays.