Dear California
after the fires
Yesterday I passed a utility pole plastered
with leaflets so old they formed a dress
the color of fog, and I thought of you, my California,
the way you used to be, your chain-reaction pileups
on old highway 99 and two-hour school delays,
your fog a room in which I could hide,
my hands gone, my feet gone,
your sun hung on a clothesline to dry.
Now you are my faraway sorrow,
reaching so high with your mirror and smoke
I can’t tell if you’re still breathing,
California; I have no advice to give.
Birds fly over your great valley
but they cannot stop the wind.
For you, I choose a black dress,
the hem taking on dust. A straw hat
with the brim pulled low and sandals
made of ash. California, I travel anywhere
but still I find you, your tricks and magic,
your small noise through the wires.
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Eileen Pettycrew’s poems have been published or are forthcoming in New Ohio Review, CALYX Journal, Cave Wall, ONE ART, SWWIM Every Day, MacQueen’s Quinterly, Blue Heron Review, and elsewhere. In 2022 she was one of two runners-up for the Prime Number Magazine Award for Poetry and a finalist for the New Letters Award for Poetry. Currently, she is pursuing an MFA at Pacific University. A Pushcart Prize nominee, Eileen lives in Portland, Oregon.
