Small Rocks
At the park’s playground
I fumed in my loneliness
sad and angered
at what, I can no longer recall.
But I remember the way
I flung small rocks
across the field
the ache in my right arm
a relief, an expulsion,
pitching away at the fury
that gnawed at my neck
and grappled with my ribs—
jealousy, sorrow, fear.
Wildly I whirled my unspent
anger until one of those
quartzite missiles struck
my sister’s best friend
behind the ear.
How the rage in me emptied
my body drained into
stillness, cold with horror,
shuddered at what
anger does, knowing I
could not undo that damage.
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Ann E. Michael lives in eastern Pennsylvania. Her latest poetry collection is Abundance/Diminishment. Her book The Red Queen Hypothesis won the 2022 Prairie State Poetry Prize; she’s the author of Water-Rites (2012) and six chapbooks. She is a hospice volunteer, writing tutor, and chronicler of her own backyard who maintains a long-running blog at https://annemichael.blog/
